tamarab

i am probably not alone in this… i really do love food, it expresses emotion, it comforts, it celebrates… i believe God made it this way! So, im not going to deny myself the things i love. What i am going to do is control gluttony… or overeating.

i made breakfast. breakfast is a celebration here, it has been since i moved to texas 6 years ago. A celebration of freedom… i haven’t had a real job and working for myself in my home i can take the time to cook breakfast. A celebration of values… getting back to what is simple when life was simple, when families ate a hearty breakfast before a hard days work. (my 96 yr old grandma still eats her large breakfasts) i just love breakfast. I have been cooking my business partner breakfast for 6 years and i dont plan on quiting. We dont do it as often with our schedule now, but once a week or every other week… we like a good hearty breakfast.

 Todays menu, bacon, eggs, hashbrowns and bicuits and gravy… now… i did eat a 800 calorie breakfast! but… i did much better than the last time and i was tracking my calories, last time i ate 1200! lol… i didn’t over do it, i said enough is enough, i had a small portion fo those things i love.  (bacon, hashbrowns and biscuits and gravy)

I have found when i eat a breakfast with protien i dont feel like im starving the rest of the day, lol.. i just cant do this every morning. normally its a breakfast sandwich . Since i ate a hearty breakfast I will eat less today for my other meals. I have also made it past noon without drinking a soda… woo hoo that will help as well.

The other thing i do is weigh myself everyday… yes, i am 2 lbs heavier than yesterday but i am chalking that up to water, yesterdays dairy queen feast was pretty high in sodium. well, and for other reasons im retaining water right now….  i have learned to not let the scale discourage me, as long as i was eating less calories than i was burning thru work and other “exercise” then the scale eventually comes around. I also think the daily weigh in makes it easier to not get discouraged, knowing how much i fluxuate from day to day what if one week i weigh myself and im at a point where im not retaining water and the next week im bloated… thats going to depress me for sure!!! so, every morning i weigh in… and its just a number… im looking forward to the number becoming a SMALLER number… but it is just a number.

 But back to the loving food thing… food is more than nourishment and i cant imagine it any other way and that is why i have always objected to diets. i use food for so many things, to express love, to celebrate to comfort… is that really such a bad thing? i think too many “diet books” and “gurus” want to make it a bad thing. The emotion that we tie to food isn’t the bad thing… what is bad is over doing it… but overdoing anything is bad. even if that thing is as good as a biscuit tore up and smothered in sawmill gravy!

 what does my sunday look like? I went to church after breakfast, it was a great service. I have to go to the restaurant and make our food order soon then go back at 4:30 and work till 10 pm. We just started opening on sundays so they are still pretty slow.. it will be tough to get my exercise in and not be lazy today but there are some cleaning jobs i wanted to tackle and ill focus on them.

 hope yall have a wonderful sunday.

Food Log

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I didn’t do well as far as my goals, i drank soda and ate dairy queen for supper and ugh not only does it taste bad its so bad for me. Now i did keep my calories in the target range… i did get exercise at work and housework…

 that is what i like about this program. I have never been a fan of counting calories… i would rather exercise than watch what i eat. but at this point… what happens is i decide to “diet”… i make up my mind… the first day i get up and then  i eat like a pig… that night… see… diets dont work for me… imight as well give up!

i actually think this is something inside me rebelling… the more i think about dieting the more i eat! nope… aint gonna make me do it! with this… HA… i didn’t sabotage myself… i tried and STILL managed to stay on track. after a few days that rebel in me gets tired of rebeling and the competative part comes out… let me see if i can do better than i did yesterday…

so that is how this is gonna go. I ate horribly today… dairy queen hungerbuster… not just a burger but a burger with bacon and cheese, french fries, twice as much soda as i drank yesterday… but i STILL kept my calories in check because i know that one meal isn’t going to sink me anymore! 

Food Log

well i guess its really day one because i signed up last night possibly after midnight. I couldn’t sleep last night because I hurt. The problem is im on my feet at work all day and by night time my knees and left heel hurt so bad i cant stand it. It hurts to lay down and i lay there thinking about hurting!

 So as i said in my profile, ive never worried much about my weight although ive always been overweight. I think ive looked good in spite of it, im proportioned well, i didn’t pay much attention. I think the heaviest i have been was 230. This was during a really stressful period of my life and i did at that time “start exercising” I started walking and slimmed down to 175. That was in about 2002. It was last fall that i realized i had gained up to 190 and that is the weight that i told myself i wouldn’t let myself ever get over again. Since last fall my life has been crazy. I have lost my best friend to cancer, we opened the restaurant, i haven’t cooked a meal at home in who knows how long… During the building process of the restaurant i gained 15 lbs and was 205. Since we opened in april i have lost some.. amazingly when i got on the scale this morning it was 195! woo hoo.

 How have i lost weight while owning a restaurant? its not my food choices i have lived on subs and pizza! lol its because i work 7-12 hours a day 5-7 days a week doing physical labor at the store! What i would like to do is start making better food choices, eliminate soda from my diet and in addition to work, start walking again. I know that once i get below 190 again the pain in my feet will go away some, that seems to be the magic number, but id like to do more than that this time and make some real lifestyle and health changes to get to my “ideal” weight (which i haven’t seen since i was a senior in high school!)

Today i have to work during the day. I can tend to get lazy on slow days and saturday (especially a bbq weekend like this) are slow days, so im going to make sure im “doing” something while there… our motto is if there is time to lean there is time to clean, so a good cleaning of some areas will keep me busy. Im going to try no soda, although i doubt i can go totally cold turkey. When i was doing the other site i found if i ate a traditional breakfast regardlessof the calories, i still did ok during the day. If i didn’t eat protien for breakfast, i overate the rest of the day, so i think we are going to go find a breakfast restaurant and get something to eat!

 well that is my thoughts on life today.

I was using a pay system like this one… wont give the name i guess but i got off track when i went on vacation and it has expired and dont feel like paying when there is a free alternative…

 anyways. this is day one on this site. I would like to lose some weight. It is going to be a struggle… i own a pizza restaurant! lol. Actually i haven’t gained that much weight since we opened the restaurant but during the building process (nov-april) i put some on.

 right now… i hurt. after a 8 hour shift up there i just ache and i know my feet and knees will feel 100 percent better if i lose weight. So… thats where im starting.

What i do know is i drink way too much coke and other sodas. I need to work on cutting down on them. The work i do is pretty active, im on my feet, theres lifting, streching (im short and everything is a reach for me), bending and walking. so i am getting alot of exercise thru that. I would like to add a morning walk to the exercise.

what i liked about the other program is i could put in what i ate and what i did for exercise and it told me if i was on track. I lost 8 lbs in 3 weeks! lol.. then the vacation i gained it plus 3 lbs since back… so im gonna give it another try.